Hello.
As night falls, the air turns chilly.
And when the night comes, I start to remember old wounds.
Last year, I overdosed, despite my age.
It’s been a year since then, and so much has happened.
I struggled to change myself, diving in with everything I had.
And before I knew it, it’s already November.
Maybe it wasn’t so much about changing but more about expanding what I could do.
All I have is my PC, and the temples and shrines are my emotional support.
That’s when I decided to start writing.
And before I knew it, here I am, creating AI illustrations and using Canva for designs.
The PC is just a cold, inorganic box, but it teaches me how to live.
It gives me a way to live and the strength to keep going.
I’m still weak, unable to do much in reality.
I feel like I’m useless, even to society.
Yet, when I sit in front of the PC, I think, "I’ll give it my all."
And that thought helps me live.
Thank you for reading this blog.
Last year, I was all alone.
Because of my illness and isolation, I overdosed.
They took me to the hospital, and the doctor scolded me.
From that time, it feels like I’ve traveled a long way.
I’m living in a place I couldn’t have imagined back then.
Yes, I might still be at rock bottom, but my heart feels warm.
Thank you for always reading.
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さて (Well then)
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Today’s creation on Canva:
Here it is! Ta-da!
（a piece of canva）
Look at this chaotic masterpiece!
Marvelous!
I wanted to encourage myself with a bit of chaos.
There’s been a lot of family trouble,
and it almost dragged me into the dark.
(˘･_･˘)☆
But☆彡
As long as I kept moving my hands, the piece started to come together.
Even if it’s chaotic, even if it’s not perfect,
it’s still a step forward.
Taking that step, even if it feels like an escape from reality, is saving me.
Life throws heavy things at us, doesn’t it?
Take care, everyone, and stay well!
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*This translation was assisted by AI.*
Here's a little extra! An illustration created by AI 🍩
Now I feel like having a donut!
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