This is how it went today—
I participated as an exhibitor at a fortune-telling market.
It felt a little mysterious.
Actually, the person I messaged on Instagram, asking if I could join a local market here in Kagawa,
was a woman who had lived abroad for many years
and was more comfortable speaking English.
(ノ・ω・)ノOoooh—!☆
So, there was no stiffness or formality.
As long as I kept to basic human manners,
she told me,
“Do it however you like.”
Although I was in Kagawa,
I was able to experience a market
that had a slightly more free-spirited, international atmosphere.
It was a precious opportunity.
...
Somehow, I was able to communicate naturally with this woman.
Even though until now,
because of my mental health struggles,
I had tried to avoid interacting with others—
But when I decided to take steps toward independence,
for the first time in my life,
I met a woman
to whom I could relax and express what was in my heart.
She is a woman who creates and sells handmade jewelry.
A new place,
a new experience—
and in truth,
I was lacking confidence and feeling scared.
And she said to me, "It’s OK. Be happy."
To someone like me,
who until now had only encountered people
who scolded or hurt me with their words,
her kindness felt like
receiving a delicious glass of water with ice
in the middle of the desert.
Sure,
fortune-telling might seem suspicious to some,
or not something easy to make a living at—
But for me,
it was a step toward independence.
And I hope that from here,
something new will begin.
I’m already 48,
but still—
☆
（´∀｀）
☆
Today,
I had one customer.
At first,
they looked at my menu and walked away.
But then,
they came back
and shared their story with me.
I told them what the cards revealed.
Even that,
felt like
a small star shining gently
in the darkness of the night.
I wondered if they liked the decorations,
or maybe something else caught their eye—
I just felt thankful
for being chosen.
Later, I had a little self-reflection,
worrying I might not have been helpful enough,
or maybe I used the wrong words—
But even so,
this became
my “star”
for today.
A star in the sky of my heart,
in the journey of my life.
I hope I can stay well tomorrow,
and I hope you all stay well too.
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