Hello there!
Long time no see!
（´∀｀）💓
Actually...
A lot has happened again.
Like a drama.
...Well,
All I did was participate in a fortune-telling event,
but for me—
I traveled alone
from Kagawa in Shikoku
all the way to Hakata in Fukuoka,
set up my fortune-telling booth by myself,
and finished the event safely,
and made it back home.
That alone
left me deeply moved.
(´Д｀)♥AH
Previously,
at the fortune-telling event in Kobe,
I felt like I wasn’t even there—
like I was invisible.
I actually wrote about that.
The person at the booth next to mine
quietly said,
"You seem like a quiet person..."
And I thought,
“Oh…
I guess I really am just a country girl who doesn’t belong.”
So this time in Hakata, too,
I was prepared
to sit alone
at my booth from morning till night,
with zero customers,
like a lonely clown.
That’s what I expected.
Because in Fukuoka,
I didn’t know a single soul.
Not even one person.
I was truly alone.
...
(˘･_･˘)☆
But.
But you know what?
In reality,
over 10 people came to see me.
☆！♬。.*
It felt like I was dreaming.
With all my strength,
with all my heart,
I laid out the cards,
wishing with everything I had
for each customer’s happiness,
and delivered the messages from the cards.
…
Because it’s fortune-telling,
sometimes the readings are accurate,
and sometimes they’re not.
But still—
If someone took the time to come to me,
I wanted them
to leave a little bit happier.
That’s what I truly wished for.
Because I know
how painful
“misery” and “suffering” can be.
I can sense
the weight of people’s worries
somehow.
....
Actually,
there’s a shrine in Fukuoka called Kushida Shrine.
When I arrived in Fukuoka,
I thought I should first greet the local deity,
so I put my hands together
and prayed there.
Then the next day,
I took on the fortune-telling event—
and people came to my booth.
At that moment,
I thought,
“Maybe gods really do exist.”
It might sound like an exaggeration…
(´;ω;｀)
But so much happened.
I booked a cheap hotel
that ended up being far from the station,
and I got lost trying to find it.
I walked so much that I got blisters on my feet—
they even burst.
But the hotel sold
amazingly cheap and delicious inari sushi,
and after a long, tiring day,
it tasted
incredibly good.
Even though I couldn’t sleep from the nerves,
I woke up at 4:30 AM the next morning
and headed to the venue.
Each step forward
brought new struggles and hardships.
But somehow,
I laughed them off
and used my wits
to get through each one.
And eventually,
I made it back home
to Kagawa.
(^▽^)/☆
I was really anxious
about how the event would go.
But at some point,
I began focusing
only on what was right in front of me—
one thing at a time.
And somehow,
I managed
to enjoy that big event
in Fukuoka.
It was held
at the super famous Hotel New Otani Hakata—
and I,
a small-town girl,
went all alone,
and made it back.
When I look back,
I think maybe it was thanks to
going to Kushida Shrine first
to greet the local gods.
On my way back too,
I visited the shrine again,
offered my thanks,
and then got on the Shinkansen home.
In this brutal summer heat,
I might feel the effects later.
I’m scared about my health.
But still,
I’m doing what I can,
bit by bit,
every day,
and living my best.
I don’t think about living long.
Right now,
I’m just trying to live “now.”
It’s not that I want to disappear—
It’s just that
I’ve realized
I only need to live in the present.
In that sense.
I also have
a cancer recurrence check-up
this August.
It’s the same cycle—
Living,
while constantly thinking about
my own death,
the end.
So I live
as if I’m ready to die at any time.
（´∀｀）💓
May tomorrow bring strength,
and may everyone
stay well, too!
☆☆☆☆☆
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