誰にも分からない苦しみ

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Myself, Still Alive

I am alive,

yet somehow

it does not quite feel real.

I think

that is where my illness lives.

I walked away from my job

without notice.

As a working adult,

I did something

I should never have done,

and my heart aches.

But still,

please,

I wish someone would notice

the things

I was quietly

trying so hard to do.

That hidden wish

inside me.

Without anyone noticing,

I go on living

as someone seen only

as thoughtless,

irresponsible,

and foolish.

The pain of that

is something

surely

only God

can understand.

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